There is only ONE thing I want out of life (at the moment)

AND THAT is a career that I love at a station/network that I love

and that’s aside from the basics (good health, shelter, etc..)

I don’t want NO man UNLESS he can somehow be an upgrade to my budding career

I don’t want NO (new) friends unless they can somehow upgrade my budding career.

The pressure is real

The race is real

The competition is real

My passion is real

I have no time for fuckshit and flakes

I feel like I’m on the verge of a breakdown

I have tunnel-vision. I’m grateful to be employed, yes.

BUT I didn’t bust my ass in undergrad for this degree for nothing

I’ve been hunting since January

My patience is thin

I’ve cried. prayed. meditated. 

edited and re-edited everything

I’m so upset right now, I can’t put it into words

I’m grateful in some aspects because I know someone is praying to be in my situation right now

But that’s not enough for me

I work too fucking hard

I’m a good person

I’m driven, ambitious..ALL of that shit

But what sets me apart from all you other heauxs that posses those same qualities?

well, I guess you’ll just have to stay tuned for that.

This is such a bittersweet feeling.

I’m so happy for some of my colleages, but….

well, you fill in the blank.